A letter from Jul 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, You are so sad right now. It has been two weeks since your first love broke up with you. You don't feel hope, you don't see a future, but I am writing this so you know that there is indeed a future, and that you will live it. You're 21 and is starting college in September. It is not your dream college but it is the way that you found to achieve your dreams, you will one day visit amazing places. Norway, Netherlands, Iceland, Oregon, Italy, France, Portugal, Finland, Germany, England, Ireland, Forks (yes, Twilight) and so much more. You will be so happy, so, so so so happy. You will find love again, you will find patience again, you will find someone that is obsessed with you and chooses you every time. Don't go back to him, he didn't choose you, and you chose him every single day. You knew love was a choice when even when things were boring and monotonous, you chose to love him without that spark. He didn't know that. He didn't choose you like you chose him every single day of the 3 years you spent together. Love is so beautiful when people want to receive it. I hope you find someone that makes you feel like the honeymoon phase is forever, like you felt with him, but this time, that that person feels the same as you. It hurts now, but it won't hurt one day. You need to get through this. You will always love him because you know how to love, and it is not your fault that he didn't. I am old-fashioned. I don't want to date many people. I want one person that will be my companion until my last breath. I want someone that will hold on to me when things get tough instead of pushing me away. I deserve that love, and I will find it eventually. I am sorry that person wasn't him. We had such a beautiful connection, a connection he broke with the mistakes he did. I am sorry it wasn't you, Neco. I hope in 5 years I'll be working on my dream job, or singing (you always loved to sing), I hope I have enough money to make my parents' wishes come true. I want to take them to Bergamo, Italy, where our family comes from. I will buy my mom a bed, that she wants so badly. I will buy my dad a vintage guitar. I will make my family proud. I hope I find the person for me in 5 years. You are a beautiful person, Giovanna. Inside and out. You have a beautiful soul and deserve love. Everything will be okay. Time heals all wounds.