A letter from Jul 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe in 2026, How are you? I hope when you are reading this now you are in a better state now. I wonder if you have completed your studies and have become what you have always dreamed of being. This is me checking on you in the future to see how far you have come along, but really this is just an excuse for me to procrastinate studying right now. Current me has dealt with a lot - drug abuse and depression. I wonder if my future self will still cry to sleep knowing the days will repeat in black and white. I wonder if my future self will still come home feeling empty, questioning what I'm doing with my life. I wonder if my future self is still relying on drugs to escape the pain in secret. I wonder if my future self still smiles and laughes but that smile withers away when I am alone at night. I wonder if my future self still lacks the motivation to do anything and suppresses the scary thoughts with sleep. I wonder if my future self is a better person than my current self. I hope you have not given up and even though no one may see your pain, I know you can do so much more. Don't give a **** about anyone else and focus on what you like. I hope when you read this, you will realise how much you have endured and gone through. I am looking forward to what you have accomplished future me. From current me, 19 years old, 2021.