A letter from Jul 23rd, 2021

Dear Future Me, Hey :)) It's you, just last year. Let me get you up to speed, as much as you can do so from a year ago, haha. As I'm typing this, Haydn's Farewell Symphony is playing. In case you forgot, that is (or was..?) your favorite classical piece. So far classical has been your choice of music lately, as well as Bossa Nova. And Kpop. Permission to Dance is the song that's playing right now, and so far, it's pretty good. Right now I'm getting over a case of Covid, as is the rest of the family. We've been sick for the past week or so, but as of right now we're all feeling a lot better! Right now I am so in love with someone who barely can look me in the eye; apparently, to some people, it's because he's in love with me too, he "just can't communicate" it to me. I'm not sure what to think about that opinion, just that if it is true, hopefully it will change a year from now. Sometimes I ask myself, "what in the world made me fall for him?" Why do I insist on having feelings for someone who can't tell me hello? Why do I stand helpless before his smiles at someone else? I haven't found any answers to those questions yet. For now, I'm content to see his smile, even if it's not directed at me. I still try to be close with him, even if the furthest I may get is the friendzone. In all honesty, becoming his friend is starting to happen, but the real question is: will I be content to stay there? Well, am I? Hopefully I will find the answer to that question in a year's time. I'm thinking that I should write a bit more, but maybe I'll save it for future letters. I hope this email finds you well and happy, and maybe a lot more different than either me, myself and I could expect. Whatever the future holds, please remember that you are loved and that people care about you, and that even if The Guy doesn't love you back (or maybe he does :O), it's okay. Much love, Brin <3