A letter from Jul 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, 22/07/2021 im at ur lowest. i hurted u. you have pretty long black hair, but i dont like it rn. i hated it here. bcs ur face still ugly no matter how long ur hair. 9pm i cut ur hair just a bit bcs i wont regret for it. 10pm i cut ur wrist. 11pm i dropped u out from bed to the floor. and u crying silently bcs u dont want ur family know abt it. i found a flute under the bed, i hitted u rlly hard with those stuff. ur head, ur wrist, ur leg. yea u still cry and wipe ur tears with tissues bcs u dont want ur acne on the face getting bad. after that, u get up and felt ur leg so hurt bcs i hitted u lastime. ur left legs r a little limp. so u start cryin again. and then, u getting up to the bed and start writing this. btw before i dropped u outta bed, im trying to **** urself with a scissor. im tryna **** u on the chest and neck but i dont have any brave to do it haha. ok bye. i hope u happy and not trying to suicide attempt again. if this didnt happen. maybe u already dead loll. sorry for my broken english i tried my best u stupid *****