A letter from Jul 21st, 2021

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So I wrote myself one of these for three years from now but I wanted to also do one for 1 year and just lay out what I've been struggling with or pondering lately. I've been struggling with traumas from my family lately which I'm in therapy for. I've also been struggling with all of the hate, negativity, bullying, physical assault, ect toward myself and other vegan animal rights activists for simply speaking up for innocent animals that can't speak for themselves. (Watch Earthling Ed on youtube). I overthink my activism, always worrying if I'm putting negativity out in the world or beating myself up if I didn't stay as composed as I would've liked when people come at me physically or with words. I am doing a lot lot lot better than a year ago with my relationship anxiety, but I still struggle with my appearance sometimes. I notice a lot of other public letters on here focus on wanting to lose weight, be happy, graduate, figure out what they want to do with life, ect. Reading them makes me pause and realize how much we are all the same. Which is nice, after feeling so disconnected from society after what I've been through as a vegan activist. I know that by the time I read this I won't be struggling with everything I said anymore. Because I trust my manifesting abilities, my re-programming, my craft, ect. And I know I will be so much more happy and comfortable in my own skin. And so it is. We get to decide that our lives will be better from this point on. All of us do. I have manifested the love of my life, I'm pretty sure I have clarity about what I want to do. It's really all about liberating myself from the past now. It's late at night I'm here with Shitten and I gotta go do some yoga, I'm currently doing the 365 day yoga challenge which will be over by the time you read this:). You, reading this, will have overcome these issues. And so it is!!! You are so happy, thriving, blissful, and surrounded by love. You and your love are doing better than ever before, with all of those blockages long left behind. And we never look back. We are proud and confident in our own skin, not wanting to be or look like anyone but us. I can smell the candle in a tea cup on my altar. Today I played guitar outside until mosquitos gave me some raging bites. I was doing really excellently with being on my phone less, but some discomforting things lately made me"relapse" plus I decided I was being too hard and constricting on myself so I kinda let my no phone plan go. I figure I will get back to it though. By the time I read this, I no longer have anxious or depressed physical sensations for no detectable reason lol. I'm done with that shit. I'm doing everything to heal. It is done, very soon, certainly for you now as you read this. It feels good doesn't it? Remember when you wrote yourself a letter on New Year's Eve right before 2020, and you felt the feelings of your lover and you KNEW it? And then you got with him that March/April? Well if we can do that, we can CERTAINLY do this whole not being held down by our traumas and past thing. I am so free from the past, coated in love and forgiveness, and all my loved ones including ones I no longer connect with are healthy, protected, thriving, and happy. AND SO IT IS!! Alisia Demi

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Dear past struggling 2021 self,

The only thing that did not come true was completing the 365 day yoga challenge.

But that was an ego-motivated goal so I am not...

Teups tabou hatt. Dan it i yjnoe eunohg i gayo becaeus ti od own eonjy ntoyislsetcn.
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Aws okrw hard fo awhsdo 2102 a year. Saw den thi eht rou hte okob 0221 adat"ceth bootmt eslhoprainit giifndn eemlclptoy nda sotanmefrdr by evasd a at rkco of dna. Eewr woh velso bhto lignreiza we nda easy erthyo lfocsnict rou ematntchta this " otbau iesncce cnoe to dera. Eth oobk uofr oas,l eht enmeregtas. Dseu ot and ihwhc so we ifsncclto sgthni si arel ryc eb vhae omrf a are on aaiyslcbl papyh who fra. Syrto klils tccoerr atth kngwion alpsee the citsoncfl irdnega pyglnai rhoste' you use rou if si tno gainmk indog ,onrbw h,tis onwk nda tsih" icdter lobi rigacnicpt teh hwta ehac nto the nietllg 'im hte so gaaltiidnv to cna by atoub our ntgitas tosm nad adn to ercisxee fo who esamg p,utsismosan wdno ttha of beern dea,iigsrnumdsntns eprrploy dis"ad/di rnugtdsidessinnam oiccoitna,nmum nsglieef endes teefcf 'yuroe isendat dan lemyfs t,ceriyld ohrte srpnoe.
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Wrok not ,ghniynat esnot'd elo,na rephyta even ,od katl tniesls adn eht ofr arulonj ouy oesd a posner frfoe ustj nto and to ehwer stsi moptrp. Sloa a tbeert ydbo aratmu otl onw ratsndedun hte lcleda oersc a ared sepke nda eth i i boko. Heva of nad thayhle saentid sropsindee and i i wtih ihwt ahev nim,d ikeir, secubae oltncfci my teab lltayierl of tpeashnsilroi nda ceasueb hoters stmo potyirnmalt os,iynsph fo ne,radle of a,rnoiisfmfat lal tiiasmsenndsnugdr gnmga-ripmrore all, osne ,miantteido now nad gainhv ahypp deddlri. Btae hmcu veah i aiyexnt yissplbo erposn sa oals os nca as a do. Sa roto it, lssta eth eht vere sapses emro it eervn i oshur, euasc vner,e ti ngiknow i eb and sesprdeed ccnsoiosu athn a am of xlyetac won ot whuotit wef dan lfee lbea wsenist. Few si vene rfa dna tbeeewn htat adn.
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Sdtaine ro an lysfme ithsrg ebosrlmp iwht ppleo,e lnrtheaig iasvtcti cuseabe weer mliana asth i swa ot pseoretn de, fo eb my nygrit ibegn leki eohtr ibnge. Won hwit iseopitv dmae ictsmvia a adn rliihntapeso :) omes vaeh i eahcsng. .
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Do htwa dan athw twah torhw eahv ot i out tou feugrid ycelxat i nowk i ripiiztore my wnta elfi wiht to yeactxl ot nad. Aespel od to nylo tnaw i talclyau nad do i nhstgi od on inthgs eleppo ot nrgelo i.
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Het i stpa hitw am yoeemllcpt at eepca. To ti rclso,eu pu dtidei heva felyms aveh, i i enrtanososvci taht ygrvehtnie nad ddt'in i eendde had tlfe grfovea i hstore ilslt eilk. On i egolrn am afirad.
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Ym it oesh,nt fi hnpeo my ym by asueecb nsihgteom atht fo i'm a ysad igtergr vsoiruyple no nede doulw on hpeno isnege eeglinf davoi erwe amtaru d,tavmeito ot. Thta lenorg occnner a is on. Real my is ,scrnee nwo a no fo adifar ym w)ya ilfe im' ophen i rome eb hw'ats (in oogd eucbaes hant a can igsterrg nrinetgties ton off abcseue.
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Eacesub dan asgol nonga iapsment i all athts' a thme aiheecv ihnstg a'htts erwit i hitnk lal dleadien reov ucmh reya tetresl okto of etseh a os ehsotrr i rutufe nad gvea singden won a torshre ev,lo os eth twih tmie im' oll, anc ni beueacs. Auyllus oslt as kesta logn ienvg rutly 'its a hte etim sa agol.
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Hcmu os igaehnl ym adn 2012 oevl lesf ot nendsgi.
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Mide :) asalii.

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