A letter from Jul 17th, 2021

Hello future Rania, Surat ini ditulis jam 1.15 pagi 26 April 2021 sambil dengerin Second Life-nya Seventeen. Kira-kira 2026 Rania masih suka Seventeen, nggak, ya? Kalo iya, berarti langgeng juga ya lo di fandom korea ini. Kalo enggak, ya... gak apa-apa, sih. Berarti lo udah melewati another stage in life, inget aja lo pernah sesayang ini sama boygroup namanya Seventeen sama NCT, kalo girlgroup namanya IZ*ONE yang bakal disband akhir April tahun ini. IZ*ONE bring you to your new life. You should be thankful to them, anyway. Okay, now we're being serious. How's life? Pretty good? Or God made it otherwise? Pas nulis ini, gue lagi berstatus seperti ini kira-kira: Nama: Rania Sarah Syaharani (belum sarjana belum ada gelarnya) Status: Di UPN (hadeh) Semester 6 (nyaris mau skripsi alias udah semester tua sambil magang di Telkom Akses di bagian creative yang juga lagi struggle sama revisi seminar proposal) Kalo lo berhasil baca ini di masa depan, please remember if you really did well in every step you take. Your decision matters. Your thoughts worth. Life is not easy as it used to be, everyday gets tougher, but I'm pretty sure you made it. Banyak hal yang mengiringi lo mendapatkan hal-hal yang lo inginkan, even you should fight tons of obstacle. Lo selalu ngeluh bahwa hidup ini melelahkan. Bikin capek. Lo mau tau, nggak? Hidup itu nggak akan terasa mudah semakin lo bertambah usia. Masalah yang lo hadapi semakin komplek. Lo harus sadar itu dan stop mengeluh. Keep your chin up, and face it. Ngeluh terus nggak akan ada habisnya. Is 2026 Rania still thinking she's "small" and still thinking about her insecurity? Gue harap lo nggak lagi bermasalah akan dua hal jahat tersebut. Karena lo itu keren banget dan amat sangat berharga. Stop listen to bad words and take it too seriously, you are cool and you are pretty. It's really okay if you are having a bad day and crying about your bad day, but please remember the sun will rise again and the rainbow will be popped out to make your life colorful. Nggak boleh lagi insecure. Semoga perlahan trauma itu menghilang, oke? I don't know if you already getting married or not... HAHAHAHAHAHA because 2021 Rania really hate involved into relationship, she becoming a heartless person, got trust issues over everyone, don't believe in love because people dumped her million times, remember? And your Dad said the maximum age of you being single just until 25 years old. Tapi ya namanya juga takdir enggak ada yang tahu, ya nggak, sih? Kalo Rania yang sekarang dia nggak mau nikah sama siapa-siapa kecuali kalo calonnya itu Mingyu atau Jaemin, ya siapa tau di masa depan lo dapetnya salah satu dari dua itu* (Jujur maunya Mingyu sih, hehehe) Kalo enggak, berarti emang you belong to an ordinary man who accepted you as you are, the one who can loving you wholeheartedly, and help you out from your darkest zone. You must be proud and feeling lucky, Mol. I really hope when you read this letter, your life will be surrounded by happiness and joy. Semoga lo hidup bahagia dan sehat. Semoga lo mendapatkan hal-hal yang lo inginkan. Be happy, ya, Rania Sarah Syaharani? I really mean it. I love you. And I hope you don't let 2021 Rania down, because she’s really looking up on you. Sincerely, 2021 Rania a.k.a you in the past.