A letter from Jul 16th, 2021

Hello Vy, My name is also Vy. Today, I'm very sad so I wrote a letter for you as for me. Five years later, are you ok?I still can't forget that nightmare.... When I was five years old, my father anused me. It's my most disgusting past. Did you forget that? But now, I still can't forgive that man aka our father. Because you've been hurt a lot, you should love yourself a lot. Ignore the people around. You deserve to be loved, not just sacrificed. Do you understand? I want you to be happy, not sad. Lately, I always feel sad. I often cry at 11 p.m. My family is next to me but I always feel lost. My family advised me to suffer silently. They say they love me, but they actually love the family they built. I suffer alone, I have to love them then who loves me? I don't blame them, I blame myself for not loving myself better. I seem to be too pessimistic, don't I? But know how now, things like spinning, spinning without end. Am I complaining to myself? Because of this, I have had enough. that was my last mercy for that man. I love my family but I don't love him. A demon in human disguise. My mother, my grandmother advised me to forgive him, love him. So who loves me? I cry alone. I do everything by myself. As I write this letter to myself five years later, I don't know what I want anymore. I only need one person, someone beside me just to let me cry. I'm really too strong. You and I did a great job. Love you. Vy (July 1st 2021)