A letter from Jul 15th, 2021

Dear Future Me, How's life? did I messed it... it doesn't matter now does it July 15th 2021 well I'm messed , life's messed.. may sound exaggerated... so be it. Idk what to do, no one to suggest what way to go ,, I almost lost hope, inspiration sitting at home. It's strange.. u went through these but I bet you wont remember much of past. I lost almost all my friends.. I'm weak, can't eat well food tastes ****, i feel empty from both inside as well as out, forgot the last lime i was happy... somewhat forgot how happiness feels like. i feel grief idk for what . Sometimes i feel someone squeezing my heart... trying to stop from beating, these aren't some fancy phrases... you went through it.. To be honest.. I can't imagine a future, how I'll be... what I'm going to do And that's all... It's unfortunate we can communicate with the future... but not the either way or can we....