A letter from Jul 15th, 2021

-1:34Am -lahore, pakistan 🇵🇰 ___hey , there ,hope u r happy and satisfied by what u r now , I Know it may sound stupid to u now ,as u have grown to a beautiful women now MashAllah but ,still this ll remind u the hardest time of ur life ,which I'm going through Right now ,............. I'm scared ,I'm hell scared ,..what should I do ....!!!! ...I'm so scared of ***** , ...I'm scared of being the cause of suffering of my love ones .....it's been freaking 2 years .. ....even mama was corona positive last month ....and u know what ..... being the only daughter .... whole house core , responsibility was on me .....it broke me .......she didn't even let me do a single house work ...and here ......she was crying in quarantine and when I went to give her food , she was crying saying. ..."what if I die ,and how will u manage everything at ur own 💔" .....it shattered me ........but by the grace of ALLAH she is fine now .... from last week I'm facing too much difficulty in breathing , .... completely lost my taste ....it's been a week now ......and I'm in quarantine .... alone in a room ..... thinking will I b dying ... crying and praying .....💔💚 While reciting Quran .....I just pray ......that ya Allah plz if it's done for me , then make this lose less painful for my father and mother ..... ____// I too have dreams.....I have my entrance exam after 2 months .....for my dream Medical colg ......that White coat l💔........it seems like I'm broken .....but I'm so helpless .......I don't know will I make through it or not .....but ..... If u r reading dear future me .....then u made it 👑 ....u r a true winner ...... U stayed strong ......... _____/ A letter from days of 2 wave of corona (Vaccine yet not discovered ) Horrific Italian and Spanish spells 💔