A letter from Jul 14th, 2021

Dear Alexis, I am currently writing this at 8:30 PM on July 14th, 2021. How does it feel being 24?? Are your knees aching yet? I will just write about what's happening in my life at the moment to see how different it will be in five years. I am 19 years old, and I am waiting for Joshua to get out of the field so I can call him at 1 AM. He is still in his infantry school and I miss him a lot. Hopefully you're married to him now, you lucky *****. I got to see him last week, it was the first time in seven months! I am really scared for him, I do not want him going into combat and as of right now we do not know where he will be stationed. He is currently a machine ******, from what I've gathered. He will most likely be reading this letter with me and say thats incredibly wrong, but he is a bad story teller. That's your fault, Joshua. Hopefully by the time you read this you'll understand all of the confusing military terms. I am still working at the same ole coffee shop, unfortunately. I am ready to quit every time an entitled middle aged woman decides to scream at me because her latte was 178 degrees instead of 179. My best friends right now are Sydney, Payton, and Ashley! My work best friends are Steven, Aspen, Carter, Alana, and Jacob! I love them all so much, they have my whole heart. I'm sure none of them will be in my life in five years, which is sad. But that is just how life goes, I will be moving with Joshua soon and they are all going their separate ways. Even if I have a falling out with one of them I still wish them happiness and success all the way in 2026. It will be interesting to see where their careers are headed. Half of the people I mentioned are moving to a different state next month. I hope that in five years I will be married and have traveled Europe with Joshua and our future dog. So far we are planning on taking a train around the continent for 6-8 months, and we just started saving up money for it! I have a grand total of $17. I also hope that I am a real estate agent or in the Air Force. I gotta get these calves big so that I am able to wear heels everyday! I hope to have land somewhere in the south with goats, chickens, barn cats, and cattle. I am proud of you, Alexis. After years of thinking you're not enough and worthless you're still here. Life is good right now. I just feel like I am not going anywhere or doing anything useful in the world. Everyday is the same and I hope you don't feel like that. Just remember, God is great. Put your faith in him even when times are rough and you feel like there's no point. There is always a light in the darkness. I love you, Alexis. Please stay confident.