Happy new year (:

Dear FutureMe, A lot has changed recently. I finally put a label on my ********* and am experimenting with he/they pronouns and the name, "Jay". I'm bisexual and possibly trans. I recently converted to Christianity and started going to church. I haven't told my mom though. There is a vaccine for COVID, and in most places, masks are no longer mandatory. I'm really grateful for Biden being elected, I can't imagine how bad COVID would right now if Trump was still in office. I have gotten closer with Samuel and I really can't live without him. I love him so much (regardless of how ****** his friends are) and I don't even know if it's still platonic at this point. Dear future me, are you still friends with him? If you're not, you lost a good person, go **** yourself. I'm struggling and started cutting again. I went to the doctors today and she wants to put me on medication and get me a diagnosis. She sent my mother and I home with some questionnaires about my symptoms so she can evaluate them. I really hope the SSRIs work. Dear future me, how are you doing? Did the meds work? This summer I haven't had much time to work on Novel to be Named Later. Future me, how's it going? Do you finally have a name for the novel? Another thing that I think is important to add is that I'm over Kylah and it's really a relief. I talked to Zaylee about it and she said I'm the living definition of "love blinds you." She's right. <33 happy new year, yours in the electronically written word, Jay