A letter from Jul 13th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Where you are at at this moment I write this letter is that most of the things are falling in to places. Your guts was right all along. and yes, going through it was a hell of ride. but Nisa, you made it then, and of course I believe as you are reading this, you are achieving more things that I'm gonna wrote. You are always people of justice, you choose justice over being on the majority. You stand firm even when you are alone, and most of the time, truth sides with you. But of course, the patience is actually what pulls you through those ****** times. You are a time freak, since before, then, and i believe, now too! you are always ahead of time. at this time I don't know whether because we have ADHD, or we are just impatient. but regardless, this is your best quality, you respect time. You are an extremist! You do thing all the way. You kinda don't do thing middle ground, you either do, or either don't. No such thing as unfinish business of course, as long as it serves you). You are okay being alone to prove your points. And again, that separates you from the rest! You just don't know how to kiss *** and be fake. you are raw! You are you. What they see is what they get. Or is it? Honestly I am still learning you. Your ability? Is having selective attention! Hahahahha. You select who you listen to what you want to listen to, you are okay being alone! You are not lonely, instead you feel even more happier when you are alone! Not many people can stand being alone. But you Nisa, you are fine with it. You even love it! i don't know what we do it, but when we are into something, nothing can stop us, we get it done and at the best grade! You are very particular, and this helps not just yourself, but your team an also career! If they evr try to twist the fact, they could never! Hahahah. yes, people do have some sorts of perception on you. But guess what? **** it! They don't even pay for your anything! Honestly, my ultimate goal is to be so wealthy that I can spend it on me, and others without being calculative. I sincerely want us to be able to provide. The joy of seeing people happy is priceless! More precious then you spend the money on yourself. You can help people anytime, anywhere, any amount. Another goal is to be a great 'Leader' of any team I am leading. A good leader, muslim way. I am done living as a person with low morale compass, not taking religion seriously. I want to stop that. Nisa, I believe you are now a better me. I want to stop being negative, defensive, reactive, and selective in caring for people. How are you doing on this? If you are still the same, better do something! Hahahahah 5 years already! However, I do want to continue to work hard, do my best, and look for more things to do to benefit myself mainly and at the same time people around me. I also want to continue feeling this positive feeling I am feeling at this moment. It is a new feeling. if you happen to feel negative when you read this, please switch your reaction. Remember, situation + reaction = outcomes. And mindset change everything! So please Nisa, have a right mindset! I want to start taking care of my diet, do exercise/stretching, save more money and stop unnecessary spending! And maybe help out more around the house? Heheheh Nisa, I got some advice for you. Eventhough your goal is to provide, that doesn't mean you have to let go of yourself. You are important! SO focus on you, and stay close to Allah. Don't get mad at HIM. He is always with you, it's you who go further away from him. That's all for now Nisa. By the time you read this, I;m not here anymore, write a new story for future you. See how far we have come. I am the only person who love you all the way. It's me all along. Take care!