A letter from Jul 10th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, July 10, 2021 I suddenly realized that as the time passes by, it is getting sadder and sadder our life is. Should I say it is because we are getting older? My life this past few days is just chill, like a frozen meat. I don't know what to think, what to say or what to do. I remembered what Ate Rem said, "when you turn 18, you will say to yourself that you just want to be 15 years old again or a child". I'm trying not to think like this way of what I am thinking right now. I don't want to get sad. I don't want to feel again the feeling I felt when I was really having a hard time and my anxiety get worse. It is hard for me to breath that time, that I almost thought that it is the end of my life. I thought that it will be the cause if my *****. That is what I am scared to happen, except for loosing my love ones. For now, I am trying to bring back the old me. The old mikki that is keeping herself busy spending time watching kpop idols. So that I can be better again.