A letter from Jul 8th, 2021

You know what's worst than being in pain till the point where you wanna end you're life but you scared? Whatching your bestie in so much pain crying and you know you can't do anathing about it. Cuz what causes her pain is her hrart that choosed to love an ******* who objectify women and just dating theim for fun. But no matter how hard you tried to make her understand that it's just becoming worst cuz she can't accept the fact that he's not the one. I'm scared i'm in so much pain seeing my bestie's tears know **** well that i can't stop them i have to hide to cry eveeytime i see her crying cuz i don't want her to see me crying i'm her friend i should be by her side when she's down but i can't i try hard to comfort but i can't because i am myself in need of someone comforting me and that's ******* me i'm living in a huge fight that i don't know how to make it out of it . Even ******* myself is something that i can't do . There is letterly nothing i can do juqt whatching my life and my bestie's life falling apart