A letter from Jul 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, If only I knew these days are the last moments of us, I should have been more careful and patient. Maybe up until today, you are still here so inlove with me just like how you were when you're courting me. They say "love is more sweeter the second time around" but we over did our sweetness that made you easily fell apart. Sorry if I was too demanding and too much clingy girlfriend. I want you to know that I don't blame you for what happened, instead I understand you and I thank you for putting up with my attitude these past few weeks. I blame myself 'cause I was too needy, I was too complacent to say "i give up" because you've promised that you will never get tired of me. I thought you are the one, I thought you will be my last but maybe that was just a thought that would never turn into reality. Thank you for making me feel the happiest these past few months. I will never regret that i've let you in, in my life. I think God just gave us the chance to feel again those ticklish times like when we were in elementary but sadly, our promised forever only lasted for almost two months. I thought I'm already a pro when it comes to receiving pain but yours is way too different, it's the most painful, the most unexpected heartbreak I've ever received. But even is that, I hope somehow, I have partaken good lessons and good influences in your life even if it was just for a short period of time. Sorry for being so hard on you, thank you and I love you that it hurts so much to let you go. 💔