A letter from Jul 1st, 2021

Dear Future Me, I'm you and you are me. Face it honey, and face this email with acceptance, love and pride. Face the sadness, the immaturity, the lack of humor, the misspellings, and the poor phrasing all with acceptance, love and pride. Dear future me, please be safe. Find yourself a safe place, and safe people, and be grateful for that. I want you receiving this email resting, safe, grateful, and in love (in love with yourself, and anything that deserve your love). I want you to be everything I can't be today. I know it's a lot to ask. I am doing my best honey, I am struggling to the maximum of the struggle. I am putting every effort I can put today, to make you and your life worth the agony and the pride. Honey, I'm doing it for us. For us to feel new spectrum of life, to understand more, and to feel honey. To be able to feel. Now, a soft breeze came out of no where in the torture of Egypt's summer. I thought to myself, "this must be her". I believe your love would give me this. Breezes of acceptance, love, and endurance. I believe I give our past self plenty of this, and I think it made her life way easier. Please, keep giving me this. Dear, I ask every question that needs to be asked, I conquer every question and I don't settle for false answers. Honey, I am practicing the hatred and love, that I've never been taught. I'm realizing all the rejection I had, and I am trying to understand what love might mean from these rejections. I am creating a language for you, that should allow feelings to come to you easier than it came to any of your past selves. I am defining feelings so you can feel them, rather than be confused by them. I am trying to define meanings so you can be them. and not be overwhelmed by the distance they symbolize. So honey, next time when you be freedom, send me a breeze. When you feel love, send me some. When you feel safe, hope me moments of safety. When you're practicing self-love and self-respect, realize that I am a big part of this self and show me some of them. I wish that you get over the effort in this email, I know you'll always have to go on. Be grateful though, realize that products in your life, and be grateful for them too. If you're not happy today honey, you'll never understand it. Please be it for me. And be sure, that me, the confused, hurt, weak, and subhuman version of you is sending you all the love she has, because you're her. And she is strong enough to realize, that she can't give anyone what she can't give herself. Honey this is a summary of meanings I want you to be: Love, Joy, Compassion, Courage, Freedom, Wholeheartedness, Dance, Respect, Humility, Mindfulness, Purposefulness, Care, Forgiveness, Accountability, Patience. yours, Asmaa