A letter from Jun 28th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Right now, I am not in the greatest place. I am completely broke, broken-hearted and feeling torn between believing in myself and believing I have made a grave mistake. But I have hope and I believe things happen for a reason. Even when it is by choice. Nothing is permanent.. nothing but *****. I can’t believe that great achievement ever came from the place (state of mind) I just left. I have no choice now but to move forward.. push forward.. end the vicious cycle of begging and pleading and turn it into my own small (or any size really) triumphs. I have learned my greatest flaw is being a giver and then when I have nothing left to give, I feel very useless, worthless and depressed. I have nothing to give myself at that point and I truly believe that no one gives to me in the ways I need. But now we go up from here. <3