A letter from Jun 28th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I probably wrote this on year 2021 and i'm only a junior high school student who's not sure on deciding what course should i take. My parents prefer me being a doctor while i am here, stuck between being a doctor or a lawyer. I'm afraid. That's the truth. And i'm afraid that if the time will come that i would need to pick a course, i still couldn't decide. Family, school, friends, environment. My problems are piled lol. I'm probably so close to crying while writing this but i don't wanna be so negative and i also realized that i am not the only person who's experiencing these kinds of problems but they're probably fighting to live, so do i. I also had to live, to enjoy my life and to be successful. You know, i always wanted to be heard and seen. Ever since i was a kid, they were already expecting me to be a doctor in the future. But honestly, i don't see myself as a doctor, or maybe not yet. I needed a companion or even a listener ever since. I want someone to listen with all my rants and someone who can listen while i'm venting out. But i don't wanna burden anyone, so the only option that was left was nothing but myself. I only had myself in the end. And in order for me to lessen the pain i was carrying, i was left with no choice but to write an email to myself containing all my rants in it. Some may think its weird but its the only choice left. I think this is getting longer so i need to cut this already. I'm wishing myself a happy and stable life and also to my parents and friends. I hope that, in the future, all my dreams and wishes were already achieved and reached. I wish nothing but the best for myself and for all those persons who played a role in my life. Goodluck self!