A letter from Jun 28th, 2021

Are you still alive? What an opening, sure hope you still are though! God, you better be or I'll **** you. If you've passed though...I'm terribly sorry and I hope you were already ready. But if you're still kicking, god****, hello! You made it! I'm incredibly proud of you! Anyways, how have you been and how are you? This is your 18-self speaking. At the moment, I'm still waiting for a response on whether or not I'll be going to study in Japan. Dad got COVID-19 a week ago but he's doing alright now - at least that's what everyone else is saying. I'm not willing to stop using masks outside of my room yet though. It's been a year since our sister went to Japan. Despite the distance and terrible Wi-Fi she has there, our relationship got better! She's suspecting she has ADHD, I just hope she gets therapy as soon as possible. Speaking of therapy, I also want therapy. I - so badly - want to heal my old wounds and prevent new ones from happening, especially between Mom and Dad. Love them, but they sure made a lot of traumas. Our little brother has grown taller than us, and he's got a sense of humor. Don't understand why he simps for JYP though - LAME! Our older brother hasn't changed much at all, let's see if he stays single longer than we do. Our close friends, the squad, is very nice. Extremely grateful to have them after so long, I look forward to hold the friendship game strong, it still better be over there! Enough with everyone else though... I really do hope you've achieved what you've always wanted. Sure, you want peace, but there's other materialistic desires, isn't there? I hope you've gotten stability. I'm so sorry that you went through so much, and I'm sorry if my actions have caused you unsalvageable consequences. I'm manifesting that it never happens! You cry so much and so often, but I know you're strong. You have intense emotional direction, and I'm actually glad you're not emotionally constipated. Cry as much as you want, but don't forget to go back on your feet. We both know it'll get harder as time goes by, but it's not impossible. We can do this, together. You and me, pal! No matter what happens, I'm proud of you. We - me and your past-selves - are proud of you. Please don't resort to closing the curtains too soon, we all know that there's so much to live for. Like chocolate! I'm grateful for you existing and trying so hard. Continue doing your best and give yourself a pat on the back every once in a while. Remember, mistakes are lessons if you make of it! Oh yeah, do you still simp for Bakugou? With love, -J