A letter from Jun 27th, 2021

My dear Samuel, Today, I write for you again. I'm terribly sorry that this came later than planned. I've put this off for two months now, simply because I wasn't sure what to put in. I wanted to write something meaningful and touching and special, but I realized that a letter for you isn't worth getting writer's block for. I'll just say what I want to say. So I'll write this tonight while I'm waiting for you to finish your chores. I am waiting for you. By the time you get this, you will be 26 and I will be turning 24. I don't know what you will be doing but I hope you are doing something you love, you are teaching, and you are earning money. I will be starting my 2nd year in med school. If everything we are planning today goes as planned, that is, in seven years we will be marrying each other, then we are only two years away from that beautiful day that we so long for. I wonder how much has changed and how much has remained the same. Do I still pick my lips? Do you still shower twice a day? Do we still say we love each other when there is nothing to say, when we say good-bye, when we are aware again of our love for each other? Do we still call each other Dear? Do we still sleep together? Are we still together? I know we promised each other to do whatever it takes to stay together until we get married, but every now and then, I still get that intrusive thought that we break up somewhere along the way. I do know — with all my being, bones and flesh, with all the stories in my head — that it is with each other we end up with, no matter what. But I still hope we remain together all the way. If, somehow, we are not together right now, I do hope you know that I love you. I love you Today. I love you from your Today. And I will keep on loving you with all our Tomorrows and Yesterdays. If ever I say that I do not love you anymore, please don't believe me. I love you, Sam. Come back for me when the time is right again and we will have our Tomorrow. Let's meet Miles and Amelie. Just writing these paragraphs is enough to make me cry. I don't want us to separate, not even for a while. So if ever we are still together by the time you receive this, hold me as soon as possible. Embrace me. Let's share a kiss. A long one. Tell me you love me and I'll tell you I love you. Whisper in my ear that you love me so much and I will tell you that I love you very much. Look me in the eye and hold my face, wherever we are, and say, "Mahal na mahal kita. Sobrang sobra." and I will say it back. Marry me in two years. Or as soon as possible. I can't wait to be with you, yet I am waiting for you. I don't know all of the details of our lives five years from now, but I am most sure of my love for you. It will remain the same if it has not grown more. I love you, Samuel. And I know you love me Today. You've promised me your love for Tomorrow, but just to be sure, tell me you love me again. Tell me you love me Today. I love you. I love you very much. Mahal na mahal kita. Sobrang sobra. Anyway, I need to go now. You're done with your chores. I'll be loving you now. From your lover, Godspeed she says, Julia