A letter from Jun 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi! Right now it's still quite heavy with COVID and things aren't yet back to normal. I'm getting fed up of social distancing and masks though! So I need to rant a bit here. As you know, I've identified as bisexual since 14. Recently I am questioning once again. I've been casually seeing a girl and it just feels right? Women give me butterflies and these feelings I just don't have with men. Ioan was our first boyfriend and it was ok; we both know how that ended though. I've been seeing this girl as I've said; and I think I'm getting feelings? She's absolutely adorable and such a sweetheart. I have slept with her a few times and it's been really good. I really like her but I don't want to risk anything, especially as it's been casual so far. I would love to ask her to be my girlfriend but I don't want her to freak out; plus I'm going to uni in September and I don't want to be 'tied down'. I do really like her though. Then there's the question of identity... Bisexual doesn't really define me anymore. Lesbian sounds right but at the same time I don't want to rush anything and have to change again. Maybe just queer? I don't know anymore. How is life in the future? How is our mental health? Are we still taking fluoxetine? By the time you get this letter we will have finished uni and be a qualified nurse! that's so exciting; I really hope we did it! look after yourself and I hope life is better than right now! Love, Siân in 2021 xx