A letter from Jun 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Today marks the day you felt really sad. You felt so sad you cried and even wanted Toni to stay to accompany you. Misery loves company they said. It's true. You felt so lonely because you feel like you have no one. You didn't want to bother anyone with your burdens. You realized that you have not made any strong bond with anyone. Everyone either left or you left them. You also felt so unproductive that it gave you so much anxiety. That you're a failure. Both with friendships and success. You tried so hard yet you couldn't achieve anything. That's how you're feeling right now. You were so desperate for any attention or company. I wish that now you are happy and surrounded by people who love you. I hope that you are not alone right now. I hoped that you have gained everything you've wanted and everything you have worked for. You have put so much effort and I really hope you are proud of all that you are. Because you are currently not at this moment. I am sorry if I have failed you and I hope I did better. I wanted to be okay but I am not. I don't even know if I love you. How can you love another if you don't love yourself?