A letter from Jun 25th, 2021

Hey you, I'm questioning my orientation. I'm not sure if I'm bi, or pan, or whatever. I find myself more attracted to guys, but I'm not utterly disgusted at the thought of being with a girl. It's a weird feeling, and I feel like I have to choose now before I do things with my life. Gosh, I sound like I'm in a teen drama. The thing is, I've been thinking about how I want someone with a certain personality, and I've never really said to myself guy or girl. I've never been attracted to a girl in particular, but the thought of a 'female' in general doesn't feel wrong. It's confusing, too, because I am very feminine, at least fitting into the beauty standards. I like makeup, dresses, curling my hair, all that ****. And I know that my parents would be accepting, my friends for the most part. It's just I feel like if I admit anything to myself, then I have to admit it to my family, feeling like then I'd have been lying my whole life. I just need you to tell me everything is going to be okay. Love you, Past Me.