A letter from Jun 24th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I'm currently sitting on the bathroom wondering why I deserve to be treated like this. I feel so unappreciated. Why is it so hard for him to accept my suggestions. Why does he feel like only his decisions are best and wise. And why can't I be helpful. Whenever I help with something and it's unwarranted it becomes unappreciated. So many examples. Everything I have done for us in school. Everything I have done that has come from my heart freely given is unappreciated and unseen. Devalued. But why do I continue to stay. To be with someone so aggressive with their fake gestures of being kind or helpful. Do I deserve to be with someone who forcefully helps with my bags by snatching then out of my hands so I won't be independently capable of doing my own. I just can't believe this is how day one ends. I hauled for 11 hours. I gave it my best. Only to be chewed out because I found us a safe place to sleep. A place that was reasonably close, affordable, and welcoming to the bunnies. Puti was so concerned about who picked the hotel. I made the decision to book that hotel. Everything I asked for was met. It might not have been me that physically booked it. But it was my method. It was my criteria. My hands were just no free. I was too busy trying to stay awake and alive. We had been driving for 12hrs. How silly of me to want to know and secure a safe place to sleep. Why must he be the one. His methods are sloppy and ineffective. His whole theory of not planning is not the definition of go with the flow. It's evident in his numerous unsuccessful attempts in life. Fathers day and moving day are perfect examples. When you have criteria that need to be met, youre no longer flexible. We have a moving truck with a jeep on a trailer. We have pets. I want a safe place. He just cares for himself. He wants whatever you want he night brings. He only thinks of himself. He doesn't care about your thoughts or your well being. He just wants to be in charge he wants to make the decisions. You must just lay low, be invincible, and just exist for the ride. Like a dog who sits on their owners lap and follows his owners commands. You must no have any opinion unless it's warranted. So I'm curious Faye, why are you still with him? Are you with him today. Are you happy? You deserve better babe.