A letter from June 24th, 2021. A hot summer afternoon.

Dear Future A, Happy 25th birthday!!! How's life going?? It's currently the hottest summer so far in a loooong time, I'm dying from the heat. Although it rained a few days ago and it was cooler for a while. Am I still going out with S? Have we finally met up again? She might come visit this summer. I hope we're still happy and in love :3 Have I finally had my covid vaccine?? I'm so pissed off (not really but yes at the same time) that I won't get a chance to get the vaccine until after summer. I might get it in August... but you never know. Am I still playing splatoon 2? Is splatoon 3 fun (I can't wait to play it)? I really hope dynamo is going to be OP (or at least not with holes in the flicks, it's so annoying) and still my dearest weapon to play with. Am I still in Iride or have I moved on to another team? I remember everyone on the team saying that we will move over to splatoon 3 when it releases after the first trailer was shown. Am I still gender apathetic? I don't think mama will ever understand... A few days ago she wanted to watch a video I had saved on my phone (we were randomly looking at pictures I had taken). It is about a person using different pronouns in different situations to help you figure out which ones make you comfortable. She didn't get it. But, she and dad are accepting that I am not straight but ***, which is a huge relief already. They might be able to understand in the end. Anyways, I'm currently sitting on the sofa on a towel (so hot -.-') at home with mama. She's at the table looking at her new laptop, clicking away. She's trying to learn Norwegian through Duolingo I think, no idea why but I'm happy for her. I'm also sleeping in the same bed as her, my bedroom can't be used due to a water leak (since 2019 bruh). I miss my bedroom and being able to stay on my phone for long hours at night. Or play video games with online friends. Aunt E and Uncle M's fridge broke down a few days ago, 18 years old O.O, and they've had to bring their food to our place and stuff our fridge. I've never seen it that full in all of my life. It's going to take a week for them to get a new fridge, so they have to come home twice daily to get their food. I reconnected with J and C during the pandemic, they're such cute kids. Although I'm a bit worried with J, I might have to keep a closer eye on her online activities. She told me about some disturbing videos she found and that she shouldn't have watched at her age. And with C, to be honest, I miss him. He wanted me to come visit them this summer (2021) but due to covid I don't think I'll be able to for a long time. It's already been 2 years since I've seen both of them and dad. It doesn't feel like it. Did I finally manage to meet G in 2022? I promised I would visit this summer but then the plans got cancelled. How about Ca and K? Our friendship is sporadic but it's beautiful itself. We can have weeks of no contact and still continue as if nothing has happened. I still need to help Ca with Splatoon, I promised I would help them get better... Covid is driving me on my nerves. I liked the isolation during the lockdowns but now everyone older than me can get vaccines and is able to move around, it's making me sad. Why do I have to wait so long? Don't I have a right for life as well? I don't go out partying with people around my age and I've only physically met with one friend. Is it too much to ask to be able to visit my family I haven't seen in 2 years? Life is unfair. —————————— Mama just made me get up and go out to the balcony, there was a beautiful sunset over the city. Oranges and pinks and purples littered the sky, over the mountain and buildings. I hope I still like sunsets, they're so pretty. Did I manage to pass the first year of uni? That psych essay is going to be the ***** of me I swear. I still am not sure if what I'm studying is what I want, hopefully I'll know by the time future me reads this. Is environmental sciences for me? Or is it space? I remember watching a Kurzgesagt video a few weeks ago about how space is not filled with life as we hope so, I still haven't managed to finish it. It's too depressing >.<. But I'm not deterred by it, I want to someday go into space, even if it takes me 20-30 years to do so. Where are we living? Did we move to Ireland? Or the UK? Are we still living with mama? Have we travelled to Japan and all of the other countries in between? I miss travelling so much and the excitement of going to new places. Have I gotten into photography? I remember I loved it when I was younger, even winning the Fnac competition twice xD. We have so many old cameras at home, it doesn't make me wonder why I'm into photography. Right now I'm currently interested in old pictures and how the process works. I think it's influenced by my interest in my ancestry. I love looking at the old family pictures mama keeps in her wardrobe. What about books and writing? Do I still read books? Mama is telling me nowadays that my book habits have decreased, I didn't really notice until she told me. I kind of got into them again, just finished reading one book in two days and reading two others at the same time (just like past self). How about fanfictions? I'm reading so many nowadays I fear I will have to wait for a few months to replenish the fics. I have a few ideas planned for my own fics and they're in the process of being written. Did i manage to finish and publish them? Have they become popular? I hope so :3. But if they haven't I'm still happy that I managed to write my thoughts and ideas down. How is speedrunning going? I just did some BT: AE speedruns last night, I got into 1st and 2nd place in two different categories. I'm hella proud of myself. Did I get into a new speedrun game? Did i manage to get sub 40 min in DW: EA? Or at least sub 45 min? Oh well, I'm going to have dinner soon. We will be having lentils with mozzarella cheese, baby tomatoes and a whole lotta different toppings or maybe just a yogurt with a piece of fruit, you never know nowadays with this heat. I hope this long letter (nearly 1300 words!!) will make you reminiscence the past (or not lol). With lots of love and good wishes for the following years, Past A :3 PS: Remember to love yourself and that you are valid! and please stay away from toxic friendships, they're not worth it. Just remember T, K, and Ch, they hurt us more than helped us. Remember that our friendship with S is worth it and we love her very much (at least your past self still does), she has helped us in accepting who we are and I am eternally grateful.