A letter from Jun 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I don't know if you remember what happened 10 years ago, which is 5 years from when I am writing this letter? Does it still live in your memories still vividly? Does it still have the same meanings as it did back then and it does now in 2021? You and I, we were that one girl starting her second year in this new country. There were so many things to learn, and there are still now, and I bet there will still be where you are standing, sitting, reading this. I still cringe so much thinking back about how that 20-year-old girl lived, dressed and said things. And I know it's not fair. She was learning, to be me now, as I am learning to be you. I hope when you look back, you will love her, and appreciate all the things she did and experienced. Well, the point is, everything is so, you know, temporary. What we feel is temporary. What we love is temporary. And I just want you to sometimes take a look back and see how things have changed, and expect the unexpected that are coming. Don't be so hard on yourself. We are learning. I wonder what is happening on your end. Well, just in case you forget, this year I am living in Marysville, with someone I used to take so much time and heartbreaks to find. I don't know if he is still in the picture, and I hope he is. But I just want to remind you how he makes smoothie for me every morning, and picks me up from Melbourne, and drives me to get bubble tea, and holds my hand when we sleep. The pandemic is still around. I haven't been home for more than two years and I cannot wait to. Everything is a blur, and it is very unusually unusual, and very uncomfortable. But mum and dad just bought a house, and they are very stoked to make it a pretty place for when we go back home <3. I just had a Hamilton hype and am buying tickets for when they come to Melbourne next year. Hong Anh just cancelled her n-th flight ticket since March 2020 (speaking of God not giving you everything hey hehe). Oh btw I wonder if she's had children by then! Job-wise, I just started working at MDKA in hmm April. Katie and the girls have been amazing and supportive, but it's more about me making a big deal out of every mistake that I make and push myself too hard sometimes. I've finally gotten over poo nappies hahaha. And I'm pretty **** proud of myself. I've been getting along well with school kids. I think for now just building up my confidence in front of the whole group is what I am aiming at. But I will get there! Laylah ("Layla-with-the-h") made me a card and a ribbon wand. Remember how she and her lil sister Grace are such beautiful girls? Oh and Darcie is such a cheeky little ginger-head girl that I am so obsessed with haha. Zoey is totally full-on, and Natie is such a sweet boy. Alex is everyone's favourite, Luke is such a soft baby and Vinnie is a charm with his adorable gigantic eyes. Remember that video of him and Darcie babbling, or when Bas told me he was in love with this J girl? Yeah, I am having so much fun at work. They give me total joy and happiness especially when they are clingy haha. Girl, I just hope that you have pushed 30 with a glorious smile and a lot of hopes. We have done a lot that used to seem so difficult, which turned out to be just fine. I wonder if you've had your own house, your baby and a good Japanese car (don't ask me why idek). I hope you have a just-enough wardrobe with all the things you can happily afford. I wonder where that 15-inch Macbook I am typing on will be then, but dude it was such a good investment aye XD I hope you are travelling the world, and bringing your parents with you. They have done a lot of admirable things that you are forever grateful for. I hope you have paid off what you borrowed from your sister. She is your rock and despite her temper well yeah she has always been there. I hope you have been to NZ for the second time (kkii) and maybe the third continent on your list. I hope you look in the mirror today and are proud of yourself, of us. I don't set goals for you to stress yourself (and myself) out so don't worry. I just hope you are living your best life, and living the best of your life. I love you, Minh/ Mihn/ Minnie/ Minivan/ Min-with-the-silent-h/ gtm/ etc.