A letter from Jun 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, This is still you the version of you being a Fangirl. How's life now? Hope you do good, because if not? I'm not gonna look forward at the future, I swear. This day and the past few years remember that you been judged, people make fun of you, struggling, exhausted, depressed, broken friendships, and you've question your worth. No one is there for you, no one. But what makes you smile those time is these people who don't even know your existence. The 7 dorks aka BTS, 9 **** aka TWICE, 7 chaotic dorks aka GOT7, 13 different species of dorks aka SEVENTEEN, 23 different kinds of mood aka NCT, 5 grandma's of all time aka RED VELVET, 7 kids with their 1 grandfather aka STRAY KIDS, 5 different kinds of softie aka ITZY and those groups that you planned to stan, but it feels like you're cheating to your bias (the hell they didn't even know you.) Anyways they are the people who make you smile remember how you hate bts before when you're on your 4th grade because everyone is getting hype to their songs esp the dope and fire but you ended up stanning them right? Not until you been inactive to the fandom when you're on you 9th grade and stan other girl groups. How's life now? You don't need them anymore they just make your entire teenager life more fun. Remember that you don't owned your bias. You're on your 10th grade now and will graduate next month and you're active to SVT and NCT a lot now. I bet you have regrets, ofc you do have. Regrets for stanning SVT late the fact that next year their contract will end and if they didn't renew their contracts then another heartbreak of the year because this year 2021 you're heartbroken to GOT7 and GFRIEND. I hope self you find a job now or you're still studying and hope you decided a perfect course for you. Don't be silly girl anymore, be brave. Just achieve your dream as a fangirl if you have enough money to spend for your wants even though your faves are no longer active anymore and decided to have their own family be happy okay? Be happy for them. You can still achieve the things that you don't achieve as a little fangirl before. You will always be a kpop fan. Kpop is just your escape. They set your standards.