A letter from Jun 21st, 2021

Dear future me, I’m about to graduate high school and it was some of the best and worst years of my life. I went into high school being a naive and sheltered girl thinking that the world was a beautiful place. In high school I opened my eyes to the pain of the world and that affected me greatly. When I opened my eyes it felt like the world around me was falling apart. I wish I knew that friendships don’t last and that’s okay. I wish I knew that one bad grade would not be the end of the world. In high school I grew so much as a person. I learned so much in the past four years. I learned how to become a better person and I’m still learning. The biggest mistake I made in the past 4 years was worrying too much and not living my life to the fullest. I wish I got out of my comfort zone earlier so that I could have made more memories. Sadly I was too late on realizing that because by the time I did the pandemic had started and I was limited to seeing the world through a screen. Weirdly enough I do not think that I would have realized that the world is more than just school and planning a life. Without the pandemic and all the issues that came with it I would have never appreciated life. So I do not regret the pandemic happening. What I do regret is being too scared to live my life and thinking that it was always about school and trying to make a living in the future. My life has changed a lot from when I was in grade 9. My perspective on life, school and the people around me has changed a lot and I would like to think it is a positive thing. These changes have made me realize that so much can happen in just 4 years and so much is going to happen in the next 4 years. Writing this I realized I’m scared of graduating high school just like I was scared about going into high school. By the time I’m reading this I will probably be going through some scary changes. I hope by 5 years I will have graduated university and I hope I’m doing something interesting in my life. I hope I did some traveling and have a job by this time. I just hope I succeed. My advice to you is do not let fear get the best of you. One thing I learned is most problems in life are temporary so the things you are going through right now are probably just temporary. One thing I want you to do is to live life for yourself and your happiness and not live a life run by fear. I know I will probably cringe at this letter but I hope you are doing good.