A letter from Jun 10th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Uhh hey, hopefully this will be sent to u cuz the last time I did this it didn’t work but umm anyways how are u ? I hope you’ve done something meaningful with ur life by now because if u haven’t idk if ur ***** make it I’ve felt so alone lately just like I’m meaningless and a nobody I don’t rlly talk to anyone I don’t do much I just sit here in my bed for hours alone as I’m writing this it’s 3:57 still haven’t left my bed … I have no reason to I don’t have anyone I don’t talk to anyone I feel so alone I just wish there was something to look forward to ya know fame,money,…love I’ve felt so cheated through my entire life I’ve been bullied forever never had anyone I rlly considered my friends never had anyone .. I’m just praying everyday that maybe something will go good I need someone or something to save me I feel like the world is working against me I just pray for fame I wanna be someone I want ppl like me rn to have something to look forward to i don’t even care abt money I wanna go viral even if it makes me overwhelmed I wanna be someone when ur reading this you’ll be either 18 or 19 I’m not quite good with numbers I hope you’ve made it I rlly do I’ve been so down for my entire life hopefully that karma will catch up and you’ll be happy I’ve sacrificed so much for my future so many ppl I’ve ghosted as much as I hate being around ppl I’d rather be around someone then be alone I Holy **** ranboo just went live as I was on the verge of crying and now I am crying I wonder if u ever met him or how ur streaming went maybe u failed like everyone always told u you would everyone always told u that u were a worthless no one I hope u proved them wrong I hope after searching for so long u found someone who made u happy I hope u love them more then life itself I hope they make u happy and u make them happy and they give u a reason to get up everyday I know when I was little and had a crush at school it would make me wanna go to school I wish I had a crush tbh as much as they hurt it’s always someone to talk to Did u make it? Am I proud ? As of rn the only thing keeping me going is my kitten laying on me rn and the dream smp I guess that’s something to look forward to :) did dream ever face reveal ? What abt ranboo? I feel bad for dream he gets canceled over the dumbest stuff and if he talks abt something and addresses it everyone goes wild but I’d he doesn’t everyone gets mad at him since he blew up so fast I think it’s a lot for him I hope he learns to deal with it he’s one of the reasons I’m here Even though sometimes I wish I wasn’t anyways umm haha how’s life Did u fail school? Do u love him/her? Are u happy? Did u make it? I guess I should tell u abt urself I play Minecraft and roblox I’m 14 I wanna be a streamer on twitch and a YouTuber I have a cat named Mars and magic U like watching streamers I’m getting a pc soon like a nice one I’m finishing grade 9 I’ve done no math cuz I’m staying home I’m on year 2 of covid I don’t mind it it’s chill I hope it lasts a little longer hmmm i don’t rlly know what ti say I’m friends with maya Emily and Alayna and maybe Beth idk she seems to want to be more than friends and I’m not quite comfortable with that even though their my friends we don’t talk much I’m a little scared for LCHS I think I’m ***** get into lots of fights or just a nobody I don’t wanna be a nobody I wanna be someone anyways uhh how’s life? I don’t talk to my dad much I went to the beach with Jessica a while ago I hated it my face got all dry now I can’t eat cuz my lips are cracked so bad I’m praying ur a someone I wanna die the future keeps me going I fake that I’m ok I fake my god complex but inside of ******* Broken and done with every thing I wanna die but ik I can’t I just hope u made it I hope u found urself