A letter from Jun 8th, 2021

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1feb8hV1q7ARXYYinLfaCK?si=0f284931968f4389 June 8th, 2021 Dear Jake. It's been five years since I sat down to write this, -five whole years since I met you, my first love. In all honesty, I am not sure how to type all my feelings out to fit in this letter, but I know all I want is to express is how much you once, and still mean to me. Let's begin from where it all started. I can't believe we had the opportunity to meet each other through Charlie and Snapchat, it's insane to look at how an add back or word from a friend can completely change your life. (**** writing this is making me cry all over my computer oh my god I'm peeinggggg). Anyways as I was saying, meeting you five months ago was possibly one of the most amazing things I had the chance to do. Last year a few months prior to when we first starting talking, I was nowhere near to having a stable state of mind. I felt alone and lost like there was nobody there who cared enough for me. A person like you was all I ever wanted, and when you silently crept up, there was no way I ever expected to find my best friend and my person all in one, to change everything in a second for me. Today is two days away from our two-month anniversary. I mean technically yes, we've been only dating for two months, but it feels so insane and so right at the same time to say it's like I have known you for my whole life. Having you in my life is a blessing Jake, It's definitely safe to say that I found one of the most amazing people I know. From the minute we snapped each other, to our first facetime, and most importantly our first time meeting, there was no doubt that we didn't have that connection, -that instant click. So when I look at us now and how much we've come, it's just wow. Having you in my life makes me happier than words can describe. Knowing me, you already know the satisfaction I get having the chance to help a person, -that opportunity to lift someone out of the battles they face. So each time you remind me how much I have gone out of my way to make you the happiest you have ever been for the first time, words can't describe how much joy I feel knowing I'm helping the person I am so in love with, become a stronger person every day. So you aren't the only thankful one, thank you, baby. When I look at you, all I see is home. You are one of the only people who make me feel so safe and loved. Everything about you makes me so ******* crazy for you. I know I will always remember the little things, and the most amazing parts about you, like your eyes that I could stare into forever, the way you never fail at putting a smile on my face, your clumsiness, how insanely intelligent you are, how much you make me laugh, your passion for the things you love, how driven you've always been, the ways you make my insecurities go away, your sense of respect, always fighting for the things that matter to you, your smile, and every other infinite amount of things I wish I could write out and pour my heart to tell you. Words can't describe how I've always felt about you, so I really hope that no matter how much I never once told you, you know that you mean the absolute world to me. Now I know it's been so long since we were our sixteen and seventeen selves, falling in love more and more every day and simply enjoying what we had for all the right reasons. I find so much beauty in that. Not being together for the tangible things, or for our money, but rather for the people we are. Being together for the happiness. So right now, I'm not sure what's going to happen to us. Whether we've broken up before graduating high school, doing long-distance throughout university, getting back together after we're done school so we've had that chance to mature, or if it'll be in the later future, I will always be here. I won't give up on what we once had, because there will be nothing ever as close to our love. As crazy as it sounds, yes the Julia right now still has the dreams she's always wanted; the same ones you once wanted as a teenager as well. That's something that will never change. So when I look at us, that future is one I've always wanted to spend with you hand in hand. Travelling the world, taking off in that van, living in all the most amazing places we always dreamed of going to, owning a business, investing in real estate, and all the little things we once looked forward to is all I knew we'll experience together. So wherever we are, whatever we're doing, all I wanted was the absolute best for you. I hope you've brought your all into hockey or who knows....football, have an abundance of healthy physical and mental health, and most importantly you are happy. I'm confident in knowing that what you've gone through these past years has been fought and that you'll continue to keep your head held up high enough to surpass these bumps down the road. You have always been such a strong person, so I have no doubt about you. My *** hurts from sitting, so I have to say goodbye for now. Thank you for the countless amounts of indescribable memories. Thank you for coming into my life, and being the best friend I once never had. I will always be here for you no matter the circumstance because I never give up on the people who are or once were a part of my life. Despite where we currently are, I give you the 5-year promise in advance that we will find each other again. One way or another, our story isn't over, it has just begun. I will always love you forever my love, here's one for the books my boy. -Ju <3