A letter from Jun 7th, 2021 (Don’t forget).

Dear future me, this is a letter from the past. You are a teenager right now, but you have many dreams even though you know you won't fulfill them all (you don't even know if you will still be alive when you receive this letter). Your biggest dream so far: to meet Di, your favorite artist! That may be very cliché, but you'd really love to do it before you die. Right now you have a role model, someone you admire very much, and that is none other than Dimash Qudaibergen. Will you remember him? As I am you, I know you well, and you like long texts when it comes to letters and all that. So I'll make this worth your while. If you're alive, remember that you fall in love easily, it's about time we stopped denying it. You're curious and hyperactive. You can be calm, and serious, but when you're interested in someone (you generally like introverted people) you can be the most restless, outgoing person on the planet. People compliment your adventurous spirit and loving ways. You're also very sensitive, though, so stop denying it. What else could I tell you... well, I don't know what you look like when you read this, but you never got along with your family. Some superstitious people say that before we are born, we choose and we are chosen by our relatives, partners and friends, but that's something you don't believe either. You say you don't believe in many things, but you always had the doubt, so your interests are broad for that reason. You want to be an astronaut, you want to explore space, describe the secrets of the universe and have the answers we all want. You don't want to die, but you're not afraid of ***** either. You want to be a race car or motorcycle driver. You want to be an architect and build especially nice houses for people. You want to join the military. You want to be president and make things right for a country. Even though you hate your family with all your heart, you want to help others. There are many things you want to be. Also, I know you are afraid of real love, but I would like your luck to help you find a genuine one. Stop being so insecure, you deserve so much. And, you are learning languages, mainly Russian. How are you doing with that? Despite the things your mom has done to you, you also want to buy her that little house you always have in mind. You live in a pitiful way in these past years, but you do what you can to get by, not like your useless older sister. If we talk about something softer, well... my favorite song, I have several, for example, Love Of Tired Swans, Know, Ah! The one you want at your funeral (or when you're dying, haha) is Махаббат бер маған (Give Me Love). So, that's it for now, I don't want to reveal too much !!! But honestly, I hope you’re doing well. I really want to get to receive this in 5 years, so, you have that motivation which is to meet your favorite artist, but you also have to live for more. I hope your life is better than it is now. Crying is also ok, ok. See ya! With shame and love, Ch1.