A letter from May 28th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi Me! Hope you're fine today, I'm you from 28-05-2021. I'm not really good today, my head hurt so much, I hope I can read this letter in future if I'm still alive. I know it's hard to live in this situation where only you that can save the day. I don't know what should I said to my mom or family about my current situation. Now I have a bf, and I don't think my mom like it, I mean you know it's really hard to love someone with same gender in here, lol. My head now really hurt, my chest feel so full, got some problem with my bf lately. I don't even know which one is true about my memories because he keep changing my memories about one or two event. I hate to said this, but I'm really tired with whatever it is, I always think I can't handle this anymore, I want to leave from this world. I'm sorry I said this, dear Me, if you can read this at the future then you're a survivor and I hope you doesn't have the same feeling just like me this day. You're the strong one if you can read this again. But maaan if still have the feeling, please get some help, I need help, you need help, WE need help. I hope I'm not gave up before I read this message again. I want to cry actually, but I'm not sure what should I cry for? but this chest really full and hurt, rn I feel so lonely, but hope you're not lonely anymore. Please don't give up if you still can read this letter. I'm hurt now, confused what should I do, I want to give up, but I'm also a coward to do that, hope you're stronger now. Love you.