A letter from May 24th, 2021

Dear Future Me, I hope you know that right now, I'm in the middle of class, writing on a school computer, to you. I'm extremely nervous. I think that by now, you should be in high school. That's the time that I am most nervous for. Why? Have you passed? I want to collapse right now just thinking of all the tests and exams. 6th grade is more stressful than I realized. Do you have homework? We don't but I always imagine high school being like piles of homework. I truly want to know. You're 17 now I think. I'm 13. I want to know if there are a lot of high school clichés. Does high school give you lack of sleep? I know that middle school might. If not that, than the anxiety will. I hope that when you see this, you don't get anxious about missing the bus when you are right on time. I am extremely worried about exams and tests and SAT. I'm going to be more worried about five years into the future than the test I have right now. I should probably enjoy the bliss. But the teachers have all mentioned stuff about needing a good education, and to get one, you must pass this test. I don't know how you're getting through it. The me right now couldn't. How are you living life to its fullest? I want to, but I can't, because so many expectations and new stuff is trying to cram itself into my brain. I don't know. I hope that you have built a bridge across the rift that is separating you and your best friends. I want to know it in 5 years, my life gets any better. Right now it's not bad, but lack of sleep is awful and again, I'm worried about college tests when I won't have to take them for five more years. I want to know if you're going to laugh out loud at my anxiety, or if you are goin to relate to me. I hope it's the former. I don't know what I'll do if it's the latter. I'm insecure now. I hope you're not. With lots of nervousness, Past Me