A letter from May 19th, 2021

Hello me You might not remember the years in middle school but I will tell you how you have been. You were an grateful kid, you have gone through 7 girlfriends but you might have forgotten about it, you first girlfriend was at the end of your sixth grade year you might find her in your contacts, she was Lilly maby your longest relationship. You were clingy and you two broke up it was hard to get through it but than came your most toxic relationship in wich you should know who that was. Youre depressed you hide it very well you laugh it off then when youre alone you cry and draw but nothing ever helped you believed your parents might get divorced and you will wonder why you had to go through this ****. Anziety gets to you and you hide, I see I’ll loose all my friends and never get any new ones you wanted to die and not want to be here you try and make a disition on wether to end your sufering and take your own life but you resisted and put the rope down youve gone through that decision most of your life I just hope you gotten through it because you are so much more than a **** up you are a strong man I know YOU make the desition to live insted of die you get the stress and you must turn that into strangth and use it aganst you inner demons that have put you down you have control of your life no-one els you take everything for granted and know you will **** it up some how. You check your phone for your girl to see if she’ll text you back but you relised it was nothing and go back to reading and watching you tube. I want you to check your you tube channel “Baltador06” and look back and see what you were and check your tik toc. Keep your friends keep them close or you’ll stop living Live your life stay safe love you man Baltador06 live