A letter from May 19th, 2021

T, I can't stop thinking about you. And I know I should stop, I really do. But I don't have the power to ignore you like you ignore me. Did those 5 (give or take) months mean nothing to you? Did our late-night talks really have no effect on you? When you told me you loved me, why did you feel the need to lie? Why did you have to play with my feelings? It baffles me how you moved on so quickly. Not only do I miss you as a lover, but I also miss you as a friend. Even after we broke up, you were still my best friend, and I thought I was yours. But then you blocked me out of the blue and you've moved on without me. And now I'm in love with Rebecca, but I can't take my mind off of you. All I want to know is this: why? Why did you end things with me so abruptly? Was it because I told you I was asexual? Did you become the epitome of a homophobic lesbian that you were no longer comfortable dating a bi girl? Was it because of the distance? I gave you my ALL, and you didn't care. Today is 5/19/21. By the time you receive this (if you even do), I'll hopefully have moved on. I hope you know that I've never loved a human being as much as I loved you. But I suppose love is evil like that, because it often makes us fall for people we have no chance with. Love often puts us in a relationship where we lose in the end. And as much as it hurts to say, loving you is a losing game. ~iris