A letter from May 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Uhhh hiya? I don't really know how to talk to you right now, probably never will be able to talk to you, but hi. By the time you get this Email, I'm pretty sure that you'll be 18. wow. 18. Holy crap! [sorry about my language, old me]. How's it going? It's your birthday, and you're 18 now. I just want to say that I'm so proud of you for making it to 18. Honestly, a few months ago, I didn't even think I would make it past 12. I was having the worst time of my life, to be honest with you. Maybe you remember it, maybe you don't, but if you do, cool. If you don't, it might hurt, but I want to remind you of well... everything. 1. You made the best friends you've ever had, even though you didn't trust them fully. 2. You realized a lot about yourself. I wonder if you're still a triple a battery ;) 3. You were down in the dumps. You were practically dying. I mean, I still am, even though I just turned 13 a few weeks ago when you get this Email. Y'know, you were so close to ending it all, y'know, giving up on everything that made you happy, but you didn't. Proud of you. 4. You grew up. That's it. Nothing more, nothing less. You just-- grew! You learned to write, play guitar, write music, and you learned how to get better at swimming. You learned not to only lean on yourself, but that it's also okay to lean on others. It's okay to be selfish, remind yourself of that. So uh, how's the family? Did they finally learn to accept you? Are they still okay now? How are they? They better be okay, future me. ALSO! The brother made it to college, right? Did he make it to M.I.T just like how he wanted to? Also, you're still swimming, right? You better be, or imma kick you. Have you written that album, yet? Also, did you finally make it doing something you love? Have you been able to start commissions with art? Are you still a writer? Also, really random, but does the Dream SMP still live on? Is the memory of Unus Annus still proud? Enough questions, but how are you, mentally? I hope that you went to get help, or you're just better now. You'll be graduating high school soon, won't you? Oh i bet that's stressful. Did you make it to Stanford with all your friends? I hope you did, you could give God all the glory if you did that. I bet they're proud of you, I bet they are. ALSO, are you still friends with the others? Y'know, I don't wanna write their names, but like, c'mon. The love triangle idiots, the love square losers, crackhead friend. I bet y'all are still friends, right? It's okay if not, lmaoo. I hope that when you get this letter that you cry a bit. I bet it'll hurt a lot to relive this moment, but y'know what? You had a great teacher who made you do this, all those years ago. Please go back to your elementary school and middle school and thank those teachers, Ms. Jackson and Ms. Maricle, because holy. They did so much for you, you know that. So ya. Thank you, future me, for doing all this. You are loved. I promise. [ALSO, GO LISTEN TO YOUR OLD SPOTIFY PLAYLISTS IMMA LINK THEM FOR YOU HOLD UP] [PLAY *clap* LISTS: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/57nTDPexUpzBEXyFQoxtwM?si=3d4d873b316744a2 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6kPYr2zbUoG2FhHR0cRNfQ?si=e25c62ca1c1b4c58] okay, that should be it. Memento Mori, hannah / aero / yixin