A letter from May 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear me, it's interesting what and who i am by now, if i dwelled and lingered in uncertainty and pain, or did i overcome everything in my way and rised to be a better man, I'm curious what people can really achieve only with their will and if that's good enough by himself in the case that you're no more than an ordinary man. Could it be? That you really understand enough today to have and maybe even make some peace? And if not, do you stay with the hope that you will some day because you think it's better than losing the hope all together and accept the situation for the abyss and the chaos it truly harbor. Well, you can always act fancy with words and speak and act and think as you know something, however, how much of is true? How kuch of anything really is true? Sometimes the thought of this mix my head into a big mashup of things i supposed to be and remind me that non of my opinion aren't really my own, where the uniqueness of a person comes then? In the little changed persona that he fixate to himself? In the moments where feels the most? What are you?