A letter from May 11th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I just i can't You know that everything has changed.. im so sick of this... you know... i try so hard for people but no one tried for me... no one is there for me... and i can't keep counting on myself to always bring myself up... i want real connections too... i want to have fun too... in my self improvement journey.... i can't just keep being productive every single day... and just keep making and losing platonic friends because i can never fully open up so it becomes distant... and they can sense somethings wrong with me... i don't know anymore... i did everything i was supposed to do i did everything everyone told me to do to feel better but still i'm lonely.... still there isn't a single person in my contacts, i can contact and know they will understand me... every single time i have opened up... people have left... i guess i will never experience true friendship and love... ever.. and this is not me being pessimistic i have tried so ******* hard this past year i have reached my breaking point.. i gave up now Someone please help me !!