A letter from May 10th, 2021

N, I wanna feel how it feels... to live in the moment, To look at life and say, "I'm not gonna worry about anything, I'm just gonna live in the Moment." What does the moment feel like? How does it feel to be happy? How doesn't it feel to do something you love and not worry about anything or anyone? I've been sitting in this bed, Thinking, "What will life be if I was happy?", "What will life be if I just have the confidence to just say what I wanna say or do what I wanna do without constantly worry what people would think?" I feel like life is so unfair, I'm only 16... I wanna live my life without thinking of wanting to die everytime I have a bad day, I wanna be normal... I wanna... I really don't know... But I hope you're happy now, If you're still around.