A letter from May 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi lmao I hope you see this, if you’re alive that is. We’re going through a pretty ****** time right now, we have been for a while but you know that. I just wanted to write this in case you actually live. I’ve done some ****** things to your body so forgive me if that causes any problems. I really hope you’ve found something or someone to live for, that no matter how ****** it gets you actually live through it because I can’t. Be better than me, be different than me. As we know we’ve tried to end it all already so I don’t even know if we’ll be alive to get this but you know if we are... Here’s some questions while I’m here. Do you have a person? Like have you met someone that makes you ok, just for a moment you forget everything and your alright. You want to take them away, far away and just live in that moment forever. Have you figured yourself out even a little bit? Have you opened up and told someone about ****? Did you come out? If so what happened? Are they ok with it? Are you close to our parents? Our siblings? Are they ok? Are you ok? Are you better? I really hope you are, because if you’re not ok then I have nothing to live for. If we never get better, if the future isn’t better than why am I here? Sorry that’s a lot of pressure but I just want you to be ok. To be happy, whatever that is. Just in case you don’t remember the current events, not much is happening. We’ve been in a pandemic for a while now, please tell me that it’s over by now. I’ve been in online school for a while. I don’t talk to slot of people, hope you do or at least have friends. I’m just breathing you know. I’m gonna be sending this five years into the future so hopefully I’m alive lol. But I’m just want you to know I’m rooting for you. Theres no fixing me, I’m far beyond repair but you. You can be something you can do something. This might sound stupid from me but I believe in you because your not me, you’re different. Five years in the future, I’ll be ok. Promise me to be ok. I love you, as much as I don’t show it I do. AND I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU HAVEN’T KISSED A HOT GIRL ILL BE SO ******* PISSED. I love you always and forever... maybe Mwah mwah mwah <3