A letter from May 8th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, It's May 8th 2021. I hate myself and everything. Papas dying because of cancer and Rudy has cancer. Last night we were gonna get mice but couldn't find any female non-white ones. Mom forgot to feed me Thursday night. I just wanna love myself. Addison is a *****. Cassie and I aren't as close as we used to he because of a ******* swing. Dad doenst really like me anymore. Kaylee is in quarintine and elianna and I have gotten really close! Why does life suck so much. My ********* is bisexual and my pronouns she/them :) Oh, and im 11 rn. I hope our life gets better. I think I have adhd and anxiety. Tommorow is mothers day. I have somd questions. Do Cassie and I ever get back together? Do I get happier? Has covid ended? Are me and dad close? Same with mom? Have I come out? If I have do they all accept me? Is my ********* and pronouns the same? Do I still like Cassie? Do I still talk to elianna? Do I miss fifth grade/elementary school? Was middle school fun? Is high-school fun? Do I have my permit? Do I have a car? Did I get a golden retriever? Do I have friends? Do I get good grades? Have I been diagnosed with adhd? Am I still suicidal?