A letter from May 7th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey me! You're twenty now huh? We really made it. I hope that's a good thing for you :). And I hope you don't find yourself thinking things like "I wish I'd ended it before I got to this point". I hope you're happy! Both for me and for you. Which I guess is technically me too but we've most likely changed a lot so is it really? And if we haven't changed, ma'am you're twenty, grow up. Or don't. We didn't really get a childhood so maybe you feel the need to live it now. That's okay. Act immature, and, dumb and childish, but not in a way that hurts others. I hope that goes without saying. Have you become more cynical? I feel myself growing more cynical. Almost like I'm reverting back to that time. It feels like everything around me has become like that time. Maybe even worse. We've made it though, so I guess it wasn't impossible to bear. You may think I'm being a bit harsh or maybe you know that it's just my way of showing that I care. Hey... okay, this is an awkward question, buttt have we had our first girlfriend, or boyfriend, or partner yet? is it still going on? if not how did it end? hopefully not on a bitter not. Cause that's always awkward. Hmm what else do I have to say. Do we still draw? ooh do we still wanna be a nurse? better yet, have we gotten into college? Did we ever get an internship or any good scholarships? I only have a 3.3 gpa right now. I'm trying to bring it up but I've been so burnt-out for so long now. It's hard. I'll keep trying though cause that's all we can do. Ah, I just sent an email to 16 year old me. Hopefully she sees it. Hopefully you see this. I'm not sure if I'll still even be using this email then lol. Mm I think that's all I have to say. At least for now. But hey, maybe you might receive another email today lol. We'll see. Alright that's it. I love you. Be happy. And cheer up! Love, the coolest version of you