A letter from May 6th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Are you and Zachary still together? If so good job Laila you did good! I’m sad lol, like really sad. It’s like I can’t feel anymore. I feel horrible for Zachary. I feel like I’m not good enough for him lol like I’m to sad sometimes. That’s why I act happy 😀 <— that’s the saddest emoji. The smile looks so fake. Especially with the eyes. It’s like it’s trying to detach but it can’t. It’s just stuck. I hate that people tell me how to feel. By the time you get this you will be a senior in high school about to get out of school. Did we get into Baylor?!?! Are we even going to college….I hope we are. It would be so fun!!!!!!! I can’t wait to have my high school experience! This is getting a little sad don’t you think? Just waiting to grow up? Idk, I don’t know what to do with my life rn and I know I’m young still but like dang. I’m alone in this world. Mom always says I have her but I know I dont. She would never understand how I feel. I just wanna die. Just be gone. But I can’t . I can’t do it. I try so hard but can’t do it. Get better please. Let us be better. Before it’s to late. ❤️‍🩹