A letter from May 5th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I’m so proud of you for making it this far. If you’re reading this it’s because you didn’t let depression get the best of you, you didn’t let the anxiety eat at your brain until you couldn’t breathe anymore. I really hope you got the 8g gauges you wanted, the undercut you wanted, the nose piercing you wanted, the “perfect body” you wanted, the body full of tattoos that you wanted, and maybe even the colored hair you wanted. If you’re reading this I hope you’re finally genuinely happy, I hope nothing is hurting you right now. I hope you finally figured out your purpose in life, I hope you’re thriving in what God put you on this earth to do. If you’re reading this you’re 28, JC is 19, Lexie 14, Miranda and Ale 13, Addy 11, and Mariela’s baby is 4! They’re so grown up now, and so are you! I hope you have the house you’ve always dreamed of with the horses in the driveway and the pool in the back porch. I hope Raven, Rhett and Rylee are all doing ok and aren’t too old to play fetch anymore. I hope mom is happy and there’s no hurt or grief in her eyes anymore, I hope her arthritis in her right arm isn’t too bad. I hope you have the dirt bike you wanted. I hope your social anxiety has gone away, and you having to look behind you every 2 seconds when you’re in a public space has calmed down. I hope you’re happy. You deserve to be happy. If you didn’t end up casting in for a show or becoming big on social media, I hope you found something you love to do and are doing it. I wonder if you have kids yet? I wonder if you even want kids? I know that was always an iffy subject. I wonder if you still have your Batman collection? Do you still play basketball? I wonder if you’re still dating Ale, I wonder if you settled your differences and married her or you couldn’t resolve things and just went your separate ways? I wonder how she’s doing? Has she graduated yet? Right now in 2021 you love her so much, but you can’t picture yourself with her in the long run, part of me hopes you’re still together, but part of me hopes you’re free and happy on your own discovering life and all it has to offer. I really hope you’re doing good, I know the past five years have been crazy, but I promise you you’re doing better, I love you, I’m so proud of you! ❤️