A letter from May 2nd, 2021

reasons why i am a ****** person: - i use my friends. - i tell other people's secrets. - i cheat. - i talk about people behind their backs. - i would hurt my friends if it meant i would be benefited. - i am jealous of other people's success. - i am emotionally fragile. - i am an attention seeker. - i am a liar. - i have convinced other people that i am smart. - i am not smart. - i take more than i give. - i get angry too easily. - i blame others for my failure. - i am useless. - i am selfish. - i am abusive. - i am toxic. - i am needy. in conclusion: i am a horrid person. i don't deserve the life that i have. they give me awards, and they tell me i am nice, and they tell me i am smart, but the gpas and scores and certificates mean nothing. it's only a matter of time that they found out how ****** i am! it's only a matter of time that they see past the facade of the nice quiet smart asian girl in the corner, and see me as the manipulative and disgusting person that i am! future me: i hope that you have changed. i hope that you are no longer blind to how horrid you are. i hope that you are happy with the person that you are. because i am not happy with who i am right now.