A letter from May 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I feel like **** recently. I want to die. I can’t help but believe that I am useless, like I’ve always been told. Just ******* useless, aren’t I? My life is going nowhere; I have no goals. Right now, I’m just letting life happen to me. I just exist. I’m just a watcher from the sidelines. I don’t feel anything. I don’t even know if you will get this. I might be dead. If you are reading this, well done - I guess. You’re ******* strong. Stronger than anyone. It’s a shame they don’t see that. I really hope you got your life together and found your way. If not, that’s ok too. I’m proud we made it this far. I love you, and I hate you. But deep down, you are amazing. I know you don’t see it. **** what other people say. You do you. That’s all that matters. Well done. I’m proud of you no matter what. Just for making it as long as you have. You’re my yellow and my downfall, but that’s what makes you so special.