A letter from May 1st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, My dearest future self... we never know what future hold for us... we never know when we'll run out of time ⏳yet we all hope for a future... writing this letter itself a proof to that. so.. hoping that you'll be alive to find this letter someday in future I will write... It's been 26 years now, you've lived little more than a quarter century, But feels like yesterday since you started registering memories to your brain. You had ups and downs, you loved and lost, you laughed and you cried but all these things you survived. I don't know how far you'll go in this journey , how many people will abandon you and how many you'll have to leave behind. sometimes I think to my self "does it even matter?" You came alone and one day you'll have to say goodbye and leave all these things and people... Alone. It just popped into my mind as I think... Will you still be alone when you're reading this? if not is there anyone else in your life right now? but I know after a certain point you decided only to have people in your heart because most of them couldn't stay in your life, even if you wanted them to... but only you and me know that, and I guess its still the same... At this moment as I write... it's her that keeping you awake... she who 10 years younger than you... why? how? what? is this feeling that taming you every time you encounter her? does she feel the same way about me? is it a taboo to have these feeling? I'm lost when it comes to that... but did you already grow over these feeling? I wish if things could just be easy as that right now. feel like going to a place as far as I could imagine and never coming back... never stoping... always moving city to city, town to town, not settling because you don't want to get attached... "I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately, I wanted to live deeply and suck out all the marrow of life, To put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived" ~Dead Poets Society~ "Old, young, bold its all in shell...! Live fast , die young or try as you will...! When time comes leave this place you must...! Hope, love , laugh and weep just don't Expect...!" ~by Yohan~ @3.40AM Manama, Bahrain.