A letter from Apr 29th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, How does it feel to be closer to 30? I hope that by that time, you can finally feel that you have done something interesting in life. Anyway, I know I will be proud of every decision and every mistake you have done in your life. I'm pretty sure that there will be a lot haha. But don't worry, you will have plenty more time for even more mistakes. That's what life's about. Where you will be living? In Colombia? Abroad? In a different city? in Soledad? (I hope not, please!) Will you finally decide to have a kid? If you don't is Okay, you are perfectly fine without them. But if you do, please try not to mess it up, let him/her grow as a normal kid, keep him away from family drama and stuff, he-she doesn't deserve to go through all the same ****, just as you did. Right now I am listening to some music while I try to find the motivation of grading exams. I hope that you can finally find it. Today I went to support a strike against the rise of taxes, I hope that by that year, Colombia's would be a little bit better, however I'm a bit hopeless about it. How's that masking? could you finally accept the fact that you're not as neurotypical as you wish? how are you living with that? I just hope that you could finally find that place where you can feel comfortable, it doesn't matter where, but please find it. I really need it at this moment. Are you married? single? divorced? single mom? It doesn't matter as long as you can feel confident with yourself. Please work on your self-image. You really need it, give yourself the opportuniy to feel beautiful more often. Have you been able to be outside Colombia again? If the answer is yes, I will be proud of it. No matter what country is it, but please give yourself the opportunity to travel more, It's my passion at this time. Right now I feel that my life is a mess, After graduating I feel that I have no more plans or things to do, I feel that I don't succeed as I wish, that I don't know what to do or where to go. I'm not sure on how to start looking for that "purpose" in life and to live happy with it. I feel that I have so many options but I really need to stick to one plan and just follow it. I hope that I don't get to my 30s still finding it out. Well, that's all I guess by for now and please don't mess things up so often, try to think and decide wisely, include God in your plans and DON'T have kids id you really don't wish to have them. Screw society, they don't rule in your life.