A letter from Apr 28th, 2021

Dear Oli, Idk what the f ur doing right now... but whatever it is, it’s perfect and enough. I know things have been tough, and the good moments are far and in between... I hope you’re better now. I hope you found a medication that works. I hope you barley think about your Ulcerative Colitis. I hope you found somebody to love you. I hope you survived high school. I hope college is everything you wished. I hope you have good friends. I hope you’re still in contact and close with your family. I hope Tyger is doing well, and I hope you surround yourself with the best and most supportive and loving people. You are good. And you are doing the best you can for someone given such nasty cards. Enjoy your life. Go drink some alcohol, since you can legally do that now! Go hug somebody, and then have *** with someone else. Since you can also legally do that! And maybe you won’t have to hide yourself or be ashamed of your *********! That’d be nice. Do you have a crescent moon tattoo yet? Are you a stripper? A graffiti artist? A psychologist? A food scientist? An OBGYN? A barista? If you’re none of those THATS COMPLETELY AWSOME and FINE! Because you know what, even if you aren’t proud of yourself... I’m proud of you. And you should be too. I’m proud of everything you’ve done. And I’m proud of your survival. Because I gotta tell you, that stuff is difficult. I love you no matter what. And so many others do! You’re SOOOO LOVED!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Okay Oli? You are loved, thought of, cared for... you are important. And ur existence matters. I love you baby, keep doing what you’re doing, who knows where it’ll take you in 10 years, but maybe you’ll enjoy that distant somewhere. At least a moment of it. Existence is not futile. Your existence is not futile. You’re a survivor. You’re strong. Peasant stock :) Also, did you ever get with that childhood friend you were obsessing about? Did they hurt you? Are you still close? Are you married to them? Are you married PERIOD? Have you had an abortion? What would you tell me if you could send me back some advice here and now? Will you apply that advice to your current life? Did you have to go to a private high school? Did you get an ostomate? A J pouch? Had an NG tube yet? You still a virgin? (THATS OKAY!) take your time my love. You’re still young :D just not as young as me lol. Hope you have thicker skin now. Stand up for yourself. You’re a wonderful poeple persimmon person (do you still love him?) do you still identify as bi? Do you live with your parents? Are you homeless? Whatever your situation is I love you I love you i love you I’m sososo proud