A letter from Apr 27th, 2021

Dear Future Me, This is your 11-year-old self. So, first, I'm obsessed with anime I got out of my BTS phase, I still listen to their music but I'm not that obsessed anymore but only because it got replaced by another obsession; anime. Currently, it's April 27, 2021. I'm doing fine these days. I miss Maria, and I also wish that I can meet Laura soon. How are you? Are you okay, are you feeling bad? Do you love yourself? Have you taken care of yourself lately? Are you stressed out? How's your school life? I used to be obsessed with Kurapika, not in a relationship type of way, but he's my comfort character and I'm trying to shift realities to get the comfort I need and also comfort him. Is he still your comfort character, and have you forgotten about him? If you forgot, that's sad. I used to tell myself that Kurapika will always be my number one comfort character, but it's okay. Everyone changes. How's your relationship with your parents? Oh yeah, I'm bisexual and I don't know your decision and final ********* but have you come out to your parents? Did they support you in any way? If not, have they respected you about it? Have you met your significant other? Do you currently like someone? My last crush was Eugene but for now, it's hard to find someone to romantically like that aren't fictional characters. I don't know why, I'm attracted to fictional characters than real-life people. Have you fully shifted? Did you stop? Have you stopped your self-harm addiction? Have you stopped your addictions that your 11-year-old self found hard to overcome? How are your grades? Is it okay or is it dropping? If so, it's okay. I'm not mad. You can always improve, there's always room for next time. Your grades don't define you, in the end, it will just be grade scores and nothing more. Have you got rid of your anger issues? What motivates you to work hard and what's your biggest fear? Are you alive or are you just existing? Have you changed your sleep schedule? Your 11-year-old self sleeps at 2-3 am and wishes to change it. I wanna fix my anger issues, I want to be a better person, I want to be responsible, reliable, and matured person. I want to be beautiful, I want to be skinny. I don't want people to think I'm fat. I want to be beautiful. I want to get rid of my scars, I want to stop feeling insecure. Have you changed any of these, atleast one? if so, thank you for changing it for me. You worked your hardest, thank you. I'm so proud of you for still hanging there even though the amount if hardships you went through, considering it would be 5 years that passed. You're so brave, Even though you may not be the perfect girl you dreamed to be, it's okay no one's perfect in the end. It would be boring to be all perfect. Live for yourself, and for no one else. You only live once, so why satisfy others for the way they want you to be and not how YOU want to be? I'm happy for you. Take care of yourself, stay hydrated and eat healthy. I love you. Sincerely, your 11-year-old self.